I've been wondering. Am I in an existential crisis, stucked in a rut, or having some depression?
At work - I'm working @ a job where I have flexible control of my time. I can have lunch and tea-breaks any time I please. I can leave on time, or earlier as I please. However, I'm not moving anywhere in terms of skillsets, or salary, while costs in Singapore keeps surging. I am able to control my emotions towards this job, in the sense that I can get very engaged in it, or I can get very disengaged, unlike in my previous work, where I am very passionate towards it.
Personally - I can have anything I want in life. Eat at a restaurant, take a cab anytime. I am not moving anywhere in terms of personal growth.
Day in, day out, I work, but I seem to have lost a sense of direction. Where do I want to go? If I change my career again, what should I do? Over the past year, I have taken up a course in counselling, and it is ending in 2 months.
I have been considering taking up new courses, but should I pause for a year or two to ponder my directions?
What do I do? Am I feeling empty? If not, what am I feeling?