Some days are good. Some days are bad.
I'm on the verge of completing the transfer, and running out of resources.
Sometimes, I wonder where I find the resource within myself, the will and the resolve to carry on living, and looking for something I love. to do.
Life is challenging enough, when you love what you do.
Please keep persisting and looking for what you're passionate in.
I can't help you with what you're going through, except to tell you that you need to press on and persevere.