Changing the Past!

If I could change the past, well, where would I start, the past I guess - the year was 2000, march 4, why was this an important date, it was the date I feel in love, what followed was a happeness, a happeness I had never felt before, something that if I knew it was going to fail, I would do it all over again, but on january 3 2001 it was over, as if there was blood on my hands, it was over, it mights as well have been blood on my hands, althought it was my blood, I hurt her - I threw in the towel, why did I give up - she love me so, and yet I let her down, what I would to go back - it's been 3 years now, and I still show a passion to restoring this tie I once made, now the only tie I make is the nuse around my trought, to dangle from the higest plank in this empty room, please if anyone can channel a passage to the past, in any shape or form - let me know

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