Was the decision to cut off this particular part of emotions and feelings easier than I thought? Harder than I thought? Last year, I stopped contact for a month, and then another month, and then another month, and then two months. I hope I'm strong enough to make it permanent.
This song from Chuck versus the Final Exam, starting at time 28:49 of the episode, struck a chord within me. It sort of expressed certain parts of my feelings, and gave me relief.
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Some day, dark has turned to grey
Stars have made their way.
I
raise my glass,
And part my lips,
10 too many deep,
the only time I
see you is in my sleep.
Some day, getting by my way,
I think I'll be
okay, for a while.
I know you, never mine to keep.
I know that I'll see
you in my sleep.
But time has been unkind, and kept me far from you.
But
I know you will be holding me in my sleep.
I've been hanging on,
Scraping
by, all my life.
And I know you will be holding me, in my sleep. I've
been hanging on,
Scraping by, all my life.
And I know I miss you,
I'll always miss you.
And I know I'll see you in my sleep. And I know I
miss you, I'll always miss you.
And I know I'll see you in my sleep.
- In my sleep
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